baby crazy

lately...ok well for a lot longer than lately...i have wanted a baby! In actuality i have wanted more than just one more baby. Oh how i ache to snuggle my own little bitty bundle of warmth again. With that sweet smell and the wonderful noises they make. I know that unless there is a miricle out there, that for me...this will never happen again. This saddens me like i can not explain to you! And let me just say...that being unhealthy sucks! and having this decision made for you is oh so hard! and how i would give just about anything to be able to be healthy and to have another healthy baby of my own. I would take your sleepless nights, and aching feet and children fighting with each other if i could look into the face of a sweet infant of my own and watch them grow and have their own family some day. maybe, just maybe in another life i will be able to recieve the blessings of more children that those of you with families have had. until then i will love on my londy, borrow all of your babies, and be grateful for what i do have.

productive

my lil sweetness has been sick home today with strep...always a sad day!...especially when, you know you are gonna get it next and there is no one to take care of you the way i coddle and take care of miss lou!
so we layed low at the house or at least she did. i had soo many things to take care of here and let me tell you how good it felt to get to that laundry list of things "you should do" but always get pushed to the back burner. plus i got some quality time with my girl! why are they just a little bit sweeter and kissable when they dont feel good? probably why they look so cute when they sleep...to remind you not to beat them when they make you crazy at other times:) happy tuesday folks!

montana, texas or somewhere inbetween

A dream is a wish your heart makes....Isn't that what disney says? My dream is a happily ever that looks like this.

wild hearts and horses

There is something magical about a 1200 pound animal who can run as fast as the wind. There is a freeing feeling from being on the back of what I consider one of GODs most amazing creatures. I miss that feeling, the wind in your hair, your eyes squinting from the sunset and the flying dust and debris. The dirt caked to my denium clad legs. There is something spectacular about a wild horse, with spirit, and charm and a whole lot of spitfire. They are mis understood, I think, and I believe their hearts are more tender than the sweet, calm horses you see at a petting zoo. They have been hurt, misunderstood and taken for granted. They have been abused, left out in the cold and thrown away. But i believe with my whole heart if you really took the time to see these beautiful creatures for what they really are you would see they are the most amazing of all the horses. The same could be said for those with wild hearts....

the up up up sometimes has a little down

Can I tell you one of my biggest pet peeves? I have serious issues with people not being real! I mean seriously folks, if you have had THE WORST DAY EVER.....I do not want you to tell me that it was super D duper! I am not, nor do I think I have ever been, accused of being fake. Some days you just worry and you are sad or overwhelmed. Somedays it is ok to not be posative about E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.....And while today was a perfectly lovely day spent with my lulu girl...somedays I do just want to run away from this perfectly unperfect life that I live. And I am A-ok at saying that. The end

new year new me

Someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for right now laugh through the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.
This has been my motto for the last 8 months or so. But... it's a new year and there's "silver lining to every cloud" Bri is back, and 2012 is going to hold my happy place. This is my year...

and happy girls are the prettiest:)

free picture giveaway

there is a great giveaway from my dear friend Lindsey Bennett, she is the one who does all my fabulous pictures…you should check her out and this amazing giveaway!

 

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its worth it i promise!