baby crazy

lately...ok well for a lot longer than lately...i have wanted a baby! In actuality i have wanted more than just one more baby. Oh how i ache to snuggle my own little bitty bundle of warmth again. With that sweet smell and the wonderful noises they make. I know that unless there is a miricle out there, that for me...this will never happen again. This saddens me like i can not explain to you! And let me just say...that being unhealthy sucks! and having this decision made for you is oh so hard! and how i would give just about anything to be able to be healthy and to have another healthy baby of my own. I would take your sleepless nights, and aching feet and children fighting with each other if i could look into the face of a sweet infant of my own and watch them grow and have their own family some day. maybe, just maybe in another life i will be able to recieve the blessings of more children that those of you with families have had. until then i will love on my londy, borrow all of your babies, and be grateful for what i do have.

productive

my lil sweetness has been sick home today with strep...always a sad day!...especially when, you know you are gonna get it next and there is no one to take care of you the way i coddle and take care of miss lou!
so we layed low at the house or at least she did. i had soo many things to take care of here and let me tell you how good it felt to get to that laundry list of things "you should do" but always get pushed to the back burner. plus i got some quality time with my girl! why are they just a little bit sweeter and kissable when they dont feel good? probably why they look so cute when they sleep...to remind you not to beat them when they make you crazy at other times:) happy tuesday folks!

montana, texas or somewhere inbetween

A dream is a wish your heart makes....Isn't that what disney says? My dream is a happily ever that looks like this.

wild hearts and horses

There is something magical about a 1200 pound animal who can run as fast as the wind. There is a freeing feeling from being on the back of what I consider one of GODs most amazing creatures. I miss that feeling, the wind in your hair, your eyes squinting from the sunset and the flying dust and debris. The dirt caked to my denium clad legs. There is something spectacular about a wild horse, with spirit, and charm and a whole lot of spitfire. They are mis understood, I think, and I believe their hearts are more tender than the sweet, calm horses you see at a petting zoo. They have been hurt, misunderstood and taken for granted. They have been abused, left out in the cold and thrown away. But i believe with my whole heart if you really took the time to see these beautiful creatures for what they really are you would see they are the most amazing of all the horses. The same could be said for those with wild hearts....

the up up up sometimes has a little down

Can I tell you one of my biggest pet peeves? I have serious issues with people not being real! I mean seriously folks, if you have had THE WORST DAY EVER.....I do not want you to tell me that it was super D duper! I am not, nor do I think I have ever been, accused of being fake. Some days you just worry and you are sad or overwhelmed. Somedays it is ok to not be posative about E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.....And while today was a perfectly lovely day spent with my lulu girl...somedays I do just want to run away from this perfectly unperfect life that I live. And I am A-ok at saying that. The end

new year new me

Someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for right now laugh through the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.
This has been my motto for the last 8 months or so. But... it's a new year and there's "silver lining to every cloud" Bri is back, and 2012 is going to hold my happy place. This is my year...

and happy girls are the prettiest:)

free picture giveaway

there is a great giveaway from my dear friend Lindsey Bennett, she is the one who does all my fabulous pictures…you should check her out and this amazing giveaway!

 

lindsey bennett photography giveaway

 

its worth it i promise!

our Saturdays lately, and every-other-play-day!

we have been having such fun lately on Saturdays, and on every-other-moment –we- can-fit-in! going to the gym, learning to ride bikes, roller-skating, swimming, going to the library, renting red boxes, seeing Disney on ice, having friends over for happy hour, going to happy hour, spring training games, parties, trying on sassy shoes, learning to shoot and more laying out by the pool! we love spring!

lil miss has a current obsession with trying on every pair of amazing stilettos in site! hmmm…does she get this from me? ;)

T and I at salty senorita for nachos and wings…and a lil margarita for chops and me

on our friends pontoon boat on the private lake he lives on

his amazing backyard which this pic does not do justice! there were about 50 firefighters including wives,families ect…partying before we all rode bikes to the stadium for a spring training game! can. you. say. FUN?

teaching londy to shoot….she had such fun learning about gun safety and firing several guns with chop and uncle Jason!

sassy herself in her new suit…yes she even got in and swam

at uncle Jason's, playing with fake animals in the grass, followed by riding horses, playing in the fort, jumping on trampolines and riding in the golf cart

 

the older gals still loving being kiddos

her first ride on her bike…she did great without the training wheels even though she was super nervous!

laying out with mom even if its chilly and we are in the shade!

dress up with friends is always great

we love the redbox!

my little artist

T and I with her $15 yes $15 icee at Disney on ice

nonni and lou….we had such fun, thanks nonni for taking us!

the castle that kept changing…it was so cool

and she finally busted out her skates from Santa and we strolled around the block…turns out she is a natural just like her mom! lmao….hope she doesn't get major scars like the ones I still have on my knees from roller derby with meg when we were kids!

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the kiddos museum on a holiday

let me first start by telling you I have been dying to go here since my cute friend Julie told me how fabulous it was…and boy was she right!

mama apes or April as she's really named invited me along with 5 of her kids, her sister Amy jo and two nephews for a day at the children's museum. considering that I was just stopping by her house for a quick visit for our girls to play and drop off a darling present (if I do say so myself) that was handmade by moi….who could resist?

so off we went rushing as usual when you have that many kids in-tow…to the children's museum. Amy jo had gotten free tickets and boy was that a savings for us all…

boy would I love a year membership here!

we played and played and didn't even make it all the way through but here is our day in pics

 

 

this little piece of heaven was strapped to my chest today and oh can i just say…delicious?

mama apes and i

i swear she gets prettier by the day!

oh darn i have to carry the 5week old baby brystal?!!!

best buddies!

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gold rush days

I love a parade, the marching bands and neat old cars! the smiles and cheering from little girls on shoulders. I love the excitement and the horses, the clubs and schools who have been chosen…the silly things you see that you never thought you would see.

AND THIS PARADE DID NOT DISAPPOINT!

we took a drive last Saturday and ended up in Wickenburg on a gorgeous spring morning…where we got second row seats and waited for candy to be thrown at us as we people watched and cheered, giggled and grinned at the fun show unfolding before us! then we ate at Anita's …yummo! and walked around the big carnival eating chocolate covered strawberries on a stick and shopping and watching everyone go by.

wonder what londy liked best?

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empty house

bitter sweet was the sale of my fabulous house! it was a must because of the divorce and a really good thing for me and londy to move to a great new area, where new adventures will be taking place. a new school, close to shopping, restaurants and family. but wow was it tough to close up that house and walk away.

here are a few….before the packing began and a few EMPTY afters!

those last few moments were hard…I cried all the way home…we built that house, designed it, added pavers and flagstone, crown molding, venetian bronze everything and a backyard…we did it all ourselves and I loved it.

londy actually kissed and hugged the walls goodbye,,,thought I was gonna lose it then as I told her there would be new rooms to be made into home too!

inside the pantry door….the old faithful measuring system…wow how time flies!

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future books

when i was younger my best friend (kat) and i would spend hours upon hours making “future books”.   We would pour through magazines and JcPenny catalogs looking for our dream life. i would pay good money to find one of these books! we would cut and paste these pics into spiral notebooks. we would name our kids, dogs and our husbands. the jobs they would have, places we would shop, vacations we would take…it was our dreams on paper…

the “beyaz” commercial that is on tv right now reminded me of this…shopping for your spouse, your diploma, kids, house and more. if only life were that easy or fulfilling. i would be married to ken with 4 wonderful kids who did everything right and have  dogs who didnt have gas…(ewww bella, she is laying on the couch and lets just say something is not agreeing with her belly, ewww yuck!) but…. really thats not the world i would wish for. and although we all wish we could have things easier or better sometimes i love “my ken” and my kiddos, and my life.  some of these pictures are things i wanted then and some now…you decide which is which:)

red brick ranch style house with green lush yard

a big lifted red truck

 

brown eyed, beautiful children with sweet spirits and talents

vacations to tropical places where i can sip yummy drinks on the beach

a golden retriever, the perfect family dog