Torn and Wanting

I find myself always torn between wanting so many things, purchasing them and putting myself severely in debt. And on the flip side being RESPONSIBLE and living without. Don't you HATE that word?!!!?? RESPONSIBLE--- something you know you should be as adults but forever trying to live like you don't know any better. I walk down the aisles of any store and I think ohhh I could use that or ahhhh that would be fun. Thank you cards, wrapping paper and ribbon, books upon books from romance novels to picture books of farms. New towels and bed linens, the newest soap at bath and body works. Grocery stores are one of my worst places- I can justify anything at the grocery store- it is food you NEED IT! Don't get me started on shoes.... London screams for the diamond encrusted Jimmy Choos and I find myself wondering... If I threw myself on the floor of the department store, do you think the sales people would take pity on me and sell them for $40.00 instead of $400.00? I think not, and so I spend my days thinking of times when i will be frivolous and spend money on all those things I want. But I can't help but think I WANT, I WANT, I WANT, I NEED, I NEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!