across the street from my home

rain on my face and wind in my hair

i love that feeling i get when i know that rain is comming. here in arizona you can smell it. it is the creosote(sp?) plants! there it is- the smell you can't get anywhere else. driving tonight it started to rain. little sprinkles at first- falling on my clean car. then as they got faster and faster and as the wind picked up and pushed tumbleweeds around the road i began to get excited. but we all know it is hopeless to get excited about rain here because in 5 minutes the rain was gone. but that feeling of the rain on my face and the wind blowing my hair everywhere...... I LOVE IT!

music

so everyone knows im hooked on music and insist on singing at every given moment- even though i can not carry a tune- in a bag- in my hand. but music-- it is addictive for me. i would have it playing at every moment. and i cant stop from toe tapping or from dancing in the car or wherever i am. im especially bad if its 90s music or if im driving with my sister. she brings out the stupid in me. just tonight i told her we need to go dancing- that initself is crazy. the two of us late at night with music. im sure most of you know this senerio well and it is a sight to be seen for sure. while driving i should have a bumper sticker- beware, obnoxious girl in car- not responsible for her actions. i have been caught doing this i can not tell you how many times. (singing and dancing) most people laugh and wave but occasionally you get that irritated look - that you are not focused on the road look. what is up with that????????

old friends

recently i have run into old friends. wow- what a memory girl i am. how i miss these people in my life and the fun they bring to it. days back then were to say the least---a little crazier and a little more unpredictable. there was always some new hot party or place to go that always promised me dancing and carrying on as if i liked the attention-( i know we are laughing now!) how can we carry on into the future and still keep all those friends near and dear? i wonder this a lot as the days seem to go faster and faster. so to all you old friends, i miss you, the wild days and in case you are still wondering...I'm still as crazy as i ever was....just don't tell Brandon! :) ha

my life as a pin cushion

so tomorrow i go in for two more "procedures" i figure anytime they have to drug me and cut me its considered surgery! not looking forward to this but will be happy when it is done since i have been walking around with a collapsed lung for a week. and oh the saga continues of medical bills and pain pills. lucky for me ---my seister is here to help and that will be nice for a change. too young to have these problems and yet no way to stop them. hopefully it will only be a 4 day stay instead of 10 or 18. off to relax before the big day.

things i want to do

if i could pick a new profession and there were enough hours in the day i would----
decorate houses
be a buyer for large stores or small boutiques
a stock broker
a professional chef
a photographer
a painter
a pianist
buy houses- fix em and flip em
a skilled Gardner
a marketing gal
a professional grocery shopper if there could be such a job
a personal trainer
a choreographer
party planning
wedding coordinator
a florist
a doctor
an architect

its good pain

you know that feeling when you have worked out a little more than usual and you have a hard time walking, sitting or even moving? that is the best feeling ever- good pain. like burning yourself on the beach and knowing the next day it will be a beautiful tan. or how about getting a shot of morphine in the hospital but knowing you will be out and painless in moments. i love good pain and frankly its been a long while since i have worked out hard enough to hurt. bring it on baby---IM READY FOR MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!