the runner in me

as i read my sisters blog today(see meg at side bar)i was soo saddened! the runner in me has been taken away and as far as i can see...will never return! damn this stupid disease i have and what it has taken from me! for most of you reading this you would be thrilled to not be able to run any longer and i realize that i am very weird in the fact that I LOVE TO RUN! the pace i would have would match whatever hip/hop song i was listening to. each step pounding in unison to the beat. i loved the nasty sweaty shirt and the sore red legs. to run in the rain has always been my FAVORITE! to run outside was the best but while running inside i would always find someone running on the treadmill and (only in my mind of coarse) try to beat their pace...faster and faster until my legs would give no more.running on the beach is yet another high for me...clearing my mind from everything with the cold morning breeze in my face:).
in my mind i am this athlete, a girl with drive and ambition to run marathons and yet my body will not give anymore. angry running was always my best, i tend to do everything best when i am emotional but anger is my best motivator. my house is never cleaner than when I'm upset!! LOL

so the next time you run...run for me, run like you will never be able to run again, like the love of your life will be taken from you! i think i would have trained harder years ago had i known that my running days were numbered! sigh

tara lynn

as i was deciding what to write about for flashback friday i sorted thru some old favorite pictures...and this is what i found! this was taken when we were probably 21. we were inseperable girls! we talked the same, loved all the same things...dancing, music, icecream (chocoalte malted crunch for T and sugary candy, me a lover of chocolate mcflurrys with oreos- yum) we met thru brett, a friend of mine from growing up and an exboyfriend for tara. it was friends at first sight...LOL! i moved out to mesa and lived just a mile or two away. taras family became mine, i dated her brother travis and spent endless hours together! oh the good times...rockin'r ranch, adam tefteller, emily, all the cute boys...marky, brant, greg,keith, keith and more sparky! remember tae bo T? and how about that indian place you always ate at by asu!!! several california trips to oceanside where we would shop and lay on the beach for hours on end, go to magic mountain and fight with those same boys!!! I miss my friend and all the fun we had together...it has been far too long since we have played and our girls would have so much fun together (they are just the same age) if we didnt live on the other side of the valley! the memories could go on and on...hand massages during church, emily drama, tausha drama, snowflake bathroom issues....oh how i will never forget that one glorious night with all three of us trading spots to be sick in the bathroom:)sure miss you girl!

suckerrrrr

so yet again im going to be late to work! every morning i get online to check my email while i eat breakfast. or atleast this is what i tell myself...then i think...hmmm...i will just see if anyone has commented on my blog (which i LOVE by the way!)
then i get curious if anyone was midnight blogging like i do i start to hop from one blog to the next, totally not paying attention to the fact that 30 minutes have gone by and yet again im going to have to get ready like a maniac for work. leaving things at home accidently, praying all lights will be green and barely stopping for children to cross to school:) im a sucker....this www is evil! so yep better go...now that i have exactly 45 minutes to shower, get ready, get londy ready, make lunches, let the dog out, and get a diet coke! (hey a girls gotta have prioritys right?)

back to school week

IM A BAD MOM! i love it when school starts...i love the school supplies and cute new backpacks but most of all i love my time alone :) terrible i know! its not that i dont ADORE my little bug but i love a schedule and i love that she is playing with her friends cause frankly i could not LIVE WITHOUT MINE! plus i feel terrible that she is an only child, but yet not ready to adopt to give her a sibling. school is a way to give me a break for at least a few hours and its fun for her too!

the babe on her first day back...last year of preschool..eek!

flashback friday

so being the blog stalker that i am im stealing this idea from amy who stole it from one of her friends. might i add its a great journal keeping idea!


New york New York...

as long as i can remember i have dreamed of new york city, the fashion, the noise, the subway, macy's thanksgiving day parade, central park ect ect ect.
soooo...brandon and i planned a trip to go right after christmas back in 2003! his aunt christy and uncle john live there and are more like friends than aunts/uncles. we planned the trip, saved for the trip and boom...a few months later were gonna be pregnant while on our trip! 5 months to be exact and i was not going to let it stop me from the trip i had been dreaming about! it deffinately slowed me down but...WOW!
i loved every minute and can not wait to get back...aside from the awesome company, we saw everything we could fit in! central park, time square, amazing food!, the statue of liberty with freezing rain and frozen fingers, photos of everything, "the Producers" broadway play with none other than mathew broadwick and nathan lane!
we watched people ice skate at rockafeller center, went to the MET, saw the new york stock exchange and explored all 7 something stories of macys (this was the BEST!)
there is nothing like NY at holiday time with the windows all decorated and snow and fun in the air!



i can not wait to go back! next winter perhaps? :)

SYTYCD

No Air dance...one of my faves- got me hooked early!

ok since the audtions i have been IN LOVE with JOshua! he is the under-dog, the teddy bear, the sweetheart and yet increadibly sexy at the same time! every dance he and katee did...i was hooked! i wanted him to win so badly but NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD HAPPEN! then last night...BOOM! he wins....go joshua!
dancing is the world for me and it KILLS ME that i can no longer do the one thing i love so dearly! my poor body! i feel like everytime i watch someone dance a part of me dies (cheesy but true!) but when i watch someone like joshua dance its like i live through them for the moment! lets just say im so excited for him and his career and in my next life...im gonna have a healthy body that can dance whenever i want it to!!!!!

proud of papa

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last weekend was brandons dads birthday...aka-papa! we were lucky enough to have ry and brig and their kiddos come for the weekend from vegas. they just recently moved back to the states after living overseas for 3 years:) just having them here was gift enough for papa but we celebrated anyway. rc bought dad an origonal 56plate for the porsche he is restoring( which apparently is amazingly hard to find and a really cool gift) go rc! dad was really excited. mom had a fellowship recognition framed for him which is a HUGE compliment to papa and his work in the dental community!!! GO PAPA!- anyone need a good dentist? :)


Londy and Brooklyn

we are all about any excuse to have a party and londy loves to see her cousins!



Baby Rachel

Happy birthday papa we are lucky to have such a great dad and are so proud of you and your accomplishments!